Gaugin's Dream / What Keeps Me Here?

from by Jeff Johnson



Gaugin's Dream / What Keeps Me Here?
By Jeff Johnson & Dave Meyer

I wonder if this life is more than what it seems to be,
A mansion on a hillside or a money-covered tree?
I know I've come upon this exit many times before,
And every time I do so, I quickly shut the door.

But this time I'm considering the journey that awaits,
A journey that the status quo will not think all that great.
And maybe there'll be fortune there and maybe there'll be fame,
And maybe I might never have a penny to my name.

But either way I'm closing in on what I see as true,
A life caught in the 'rat race' is not what I'm to do.
You call it "fantasy," you call it what you may,
But I would rather go this route than any other way,
On any given day ...

"Don't go now."
I have to.
"Don't leave us now."
I have to ...

Why do I feel so alone?
Always feeling so alone ...

I step into the mountains and close the door behind,
And wander through the photographs and the songs of my yesterdays.
A man without a country is what I try to be,
Forget about my journey and what I'm growing up to be.

What keeps me here?
I don't know.
My friends are gone – should I follow?

Don't ask me now,
I don't care.
Find me for the answer, if you can, tomorrow ...


from The Face Of The Deep, released March 15, 1980


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Jeff Johnson

ArkMusic recording artist, composer, producer, and Selah worship leader has released numerous solo recordings along with collaborations with Irish flutist, Brian Dunning inspired by Stephen Lawhead's novels and guitarist, Phil Keaggy. View Jeff's complete discography here: ... more

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